His lady.

Updating in progress

2009-12-17T19:12:00.002+08:00

eh, my blog sooo quiet ehk? i tink i should update soon, dyou agree?

I just gt back home from Singapore Flyer! And enjoyed cashing out $50 buying jeans from Levis(Its my first, i knw, Im soooo kental) But oh well, its a family outing, where shopping with Mum is unavoidable. I should say, I miss my extra couple hours of sleep for an unforgettable event. I was at the highest in the world(according to the Thing that notified us when we were at the highest)...

Pictures sooon...

God give me everything, what else?

2009-10-15T02:43:00.002+08:00

This past few weeks have been a bittersweet event. My emotions have been in and out of the battlefield. I'm back to the 'in the shell' mode. Why?

I don't know!

Its crazy, you know. The next minute, I thought everything is going well, the next, my thoughts went astray, and I'm back with the doubts. There have been times when I feel independent, there are times I feel so vulnerable.

Why are these feelings fading and entering....? Or is it that God have given me eyes and ears,and even a heart and brains, to let me see, listen, feel and think of what is happening....? I'm seeing changes, that is so sudden, I listened to people, and I felt how she felt. Then I think, there must be a better way. My previous method, was bullshit, too common and hurtful.

She used to be the "me a few weeks back", but now, its her who fills in my shoes, where I had started. To me, now, I'm back to square one. I'm back to being in that same shoe as her.

Every life has its ups and downs. Why is mine always down?

God give me everything. What else? What am I suppose to do, to heal everything thats going wrong....?

What is wrong with me?

Hari raya...

2009-10-12T14:06:00.001+08:00

HARI RAYA PICAS!!!!

:D

Family

Bandits!!!!

iftar

2009-09-12T23:42:00.001+08:00

Two Saturdays in a row.

Iftar with Bandits, and Part Bandits.

5th September 2009

Charco's with Faez aka Phat and Zaidi and Farihin...

12th September 2009

Bandits at Ayam Penyet Ria.

Sofa cik bakhit

2009-09-09T12:59:00.002+08:00

Is anyone interested in this 3-seat sofa?

If you know anyone who is interested and wants to view the sofa, please let me know through ladym1421@gmail.com.

Selling it at $300.

heaven in afterlife, not now

2009-09-07T18:15:00.002+08:00

will there be US forever?

for once, i was sure its forever.
now, it seems like i could lose you anytime.
changes like this are inevitable.

every night i cried thinking.
im going crazy, maybe.
GOD, help me.

maybe, what we need now,
is OUR time together.
even though you assured me through words.
but i need to listen from your mouth,
not your fingers who do the typing.

i am going crazy. crazy for you

Ramadhan; A rest for me

2009-09-03T22:50:00.002+08:00

Im a bachelorette who is in need of a life, besides looking and observing different fishes all day long. That didnt include on the number of times I had to count the dead fishes I find laying at the bottom of the tank.

And I wonder why they died in sucha big number?

I need to go out, meet people, and I did. My cousin's, and nenek's. And I freaking slept at the cousin's house. That is how I spent my day.

Farihin been busy with work, friends outing, terawikh, and lepak sessions. I miss those days, where theres no need to break our fast, and we could all sit happily under the blk, like kids who are homeless, and rejected.

I miss those days, and its been freaking 2 weeks only!!

And I need to go out tomorrow, or worst, Saturday, buka with Bandits. Whats gonna happen, gonna happen.

I miss Farihin so much.

Me: Enjoy your bachelor days while it lasts.
Him: You too, on your bachelorette days, hehex.

Updating

2009-09-02T04:03:00.002+08:00

Some photos are a gazillion year old. All cause, I got lazy at updating.

4E4 girls gathering.
Without Farz, Farna, Lij.

Hei Sushi. Our 11th Month.

Farihin and me planned to iftar together at any random places. And that random places brought us to Melville uncoincidentally. From the hospital, to the bazaar and to Meville Park. I was the rose among the thorns. Had my fair share of being squashed in the middle whenever the car swerve. Fir and Baz were damn happy to survey for chickas, in the car or in bazaar, no matter where.

Right after we eat, I spent time with Farihin, just the two of us. Not like we planned, but its that few minutes that really matter to me. It has been such a long time for the US session. Im happy.

Ouh, hoping Firdaus Kelep, whoever he is, Get Well Soon.

to you, my love

2009-08-31T03:53:00.000+08:00

baby, love is like the weather, sometimes it shines, sometimes it rains.
when it rains, sometimes, theres lightning and thunder.
feelings are washed away, anger inserted, arguments evolved.
its times like this, you wish for darkness to come.
life aint meaningful.

as that darkness rolls in, happy memories flooded in your mind.
you wished that it didnt rain at all.
you wished it was sunny forever.
baby, you're my sunshine, its not the darkness that i want.
life is wasted.
when youre no longer part of it.

baby, you're the most important.that i hoped,
you filled every page of my diary.
your name filled, in at least a sentence.
your pictures filled the whole page.
pictures of us laughing, smilling, hugging.
those days where the sun shine brightly in our way.

baby, ure my sunshine.
and i love you times infinity.